“如果”有一天

如果有一天

如果有一天，我不小心睡着了,

我希望我醒来的时候第一个看见你。

如果有一天，你我永不相见，

我希望我能永远在你心里面，留下个位子。

如果有一天，我即将会失忆，

我会在我清醒的时间，把你牢牢地记得。

如果有一天，我即将会眼瞎，

我希望我最后一个看见的是你。

如果有一天，我将会耳聋，

我希望我最后听见的是你的声音。

如果有一天，我会失去声音，

我希望我可以为你留下最后一声。

如果有一天，你把我给忘了，

我希望在你忘掉我之前，曾经有过我这么一个人。

如果有一天，你找到比我合适的伴侣，

我希望可以每天为你们祝福，白头偕老。

如果有一天，我将会离去，

我希望我能把最好的回忆留给你。

如果有一天，你会先离开，

我会告诉你，我爱你一辈子永不反悔。

而如果有一天，你问我你在我心中是什么位子？

我会告诉你，这个位子无人能代替应为它永远属于你！

Yea,i am back to blog for some period before i am totally off again~

Wow, it's been really quite a while since i last write something on my blog. Things had since

changed quite much. I am gradually fitter than last time~Hehe,i felt it that way as i do some

workout when i am free.And err....what else changed? Let me think...yea,i got my psp~ Well, a

lot of issues with it by the way. Shouldn't told him to buy it for me, told him to be Xtra careful to

check on it before purchase but he still failed me. Aiyo~Duno need to spend how much more on

it again. Ok, fine with that. Then lately i applied streamyx in my house with 2mbps~ Wee, sadly

it's my name who in contract. Haiz~~Duno wat happened if he went to work,it might means that

i need to pay for it. And now ady i need to pay Xtra RM20 on the streamyx.Damned!

Haiz~~Watever...

Good things is....I felt that my luck is coming back again~Thats indeed a great news for me

as i really did need dat very much. I been in bad luck since the middle of the year since may or

april. I did take a sign from "Na Tuk Kong","He" told me to be patient as i will be not that good

fated in the second half of the year but things will slowly changed towards the end of the years.

Well,it turns up that way.It really accurate!!Every year i gonna take a sign from the temple and

it really shows me the hint that wat i will be facing.Goods things to refer with!!

Anyway, the person that i kept on thinking from the beginning of the years slowly and

steadily fainting from me.Well,i did not mean that i fully forget but it means that i wont think as

much as i think last time.It is good,as we both are busy with each others' things.Quite busy days

ahead for me,a bulk of tests,asignments coming after me.Well, after all that then the Final Exam

Pulak~Haiz,even thinking about it now felt hard...Well,good things gonna come ahead after the

hard days over.It's CNY again~~Wee!!Hey~I forgotten before CNY i got my birthday going on.

Haha,really forgotten bout it ady.I guess it's ok as i dont felt that i really need to remember.

Quite a long time ago since i had a great birthday. The happiest could be hanging out with best

friend yew ping and the gangs a few years back ago.Yupe,thats the happiest birthday i got since

then i dont really bother with my birthdays~Oh ya,thanks for the wishes i got last years from

my friends and family,and also the presents.Thank you very much,i forgotten if i really thanked

u guys.Oh ya,i got a T-shirt from my lovely classmates!Haha~Great body-fit shirt~

Lately siao tiok Superstar Avenue 7(星光大道7）,it's really amazing!!So many talented

singers and the most important is Many MALAYSIA's contestants. Jess Lee is the best,haha i

been her fan since the start of the show.Powerful voice and good techniques!Hope u get

champion as you really deserved it.I been hearing songs from Celine Dion, Adam Lambert too.

Celine Dion a great voice from heaven!Amazing and touching~Adam Lambert,superbly talented

man and powerful voice.Amazing!!

Oops,i realise that i am talking non-stop now....Haha,until the next time~Bye bye!!

People do change so much in a short time!

SO long since i last updated my blog...What goes up will come down anyway,it applies to my mood.

You dun expect to be happy all the time dun u?Sometimes,deep n sorrow,anxious n excited...It's just normal part of our life.Thats wat keep us special...

In deep mood...Very weird feeling,juz so special~I m normal for so long since i last talked with you,but when i talk with you it juz kept me back to sorrow....

Barriers after barriers,opstacles after obstacles....It's just endless~It's not much different between me n you...But y is it like that?Y i hav to be like that?Is there any choice left for me to choose?If there are,what are them?How can i do?The lists goes on n on....

Since i last known u,you are a totally different person from now.I m surprised that you changed so much.Well,it might be just my personnal opinion...But from my part of view,the way u treated me is totally different.

Hard to explain what is lack from u now n last time...Just that i dun hav the exact feeling from u now.

I guess thats what teenagers worried...When i am juz a small kid,i worried about academic.When i m a big older like now,i worried about friends and love thingy.....I guess after this ends,i will be worry about my jobs n living expenses then...

I just wan a normal life...Just want to be as normal as everybody out there,i dun hope to be special.I dun hope to be popular,i dun even hoped that i would be so rich that i can owned everything i wan.I juz wan my normal life!

Ok,the personality part(again)

I m glad again that how i acts towards things lately,less cocky(showoff) and more patient which i mentioned last time.But sometimes when people are showing off,haha i smile secretly at the back...U know y?I kinda think of:"yea,ur great one n yea ur better in academic n good in watever u do~But hey!!What is the use of good performance but u kinda bad in ur personalities?"

Haha,dont u think so??I guess those who thinking about himself after reading wat i said should really check to c whether u behaved that way.Oh,i m thinking bout it too.Wakaka,yea i ned to change more though,no one tends to be a perfect person.

In fact,i think i m more generous nowadays...Haha,not becoz i m rich but i think i m willing to pay more or "sacrifies" more now~Good for me,i tend to change this one since i m small...

Today i went to school....I m touched that everyone still remembers me~This is very touching...And well,it paid off!Last time wat u help for these 'little" guys,they appreciate it.But of coz we dont hope to get any repay when we help people....But when they pay u back,it is an Xtra u knw.Who knoes that in future u might need their help?

WOW,i m surprised that i became a really old man!i mean "mature" la!Haha~Now,i m thinking of that person again...Yea,by the time u get to know me back...I m the person who u knew from the start again~Not change because of u,might influenced by u but mainly not becoz of u.I m glad that i changed~

Now,i dont hope for anything~With best friend,good friends,with k-bro...k-sis...family,i m a stronger man!!Living up to the billing and will strong(mentally n physically) towards the challenge.(erm...My back pain havent gone and i juz fell sick yesterday)but dont mind the little things~

I duno with u guys but i like to read the real life experience n sharing it with friends...those who dont have blogs can make one and share ur life to ur best friends!It's fun u know~
C u guys around...

Free lately so share more things...(about me)

Addicted
With the main topic today addicted,i would like to share with u guys about how i act when i seriously addicted to a things...

I think most of u know that i m quite knowledgeable in technologies....Erm,i should say something related to I.T like phones,computer hardwares and so on...

Well,i m not naturally gifted from god which i know since i being born to this world.Of coz,i duno if i m talented but i think i did well in these things.

I guess it's from my eldest brother that i get interested in these things.Since i m small,i always admire and jealous(i got to admit that) to the things that my brother got which i dont have.Well,the fact that he get so many things is becoz he really work hard for it.He is very hardworking and did well towards his goal which i cant compared to him at all.

When he get new "toys" i tend to watch aside,admire and sometimes might "touch" it secretly(haha,thats y i know how to operate sometimes).I remembered that i fixed a totally rip off remote control,i wondering how......

My 2nd bro,a bit overly careless and "carefree" style always makes my desktop spoil...Ok,the theory is "pay to learn".But i managed to fix the computer mostly so it cut cost.Thanks to him i m knowledgeable in fixing the inside part of desktop.

There are bad things too u know...When ur quite knowledgeable in something,then here comes ur works...My family always call me to fix things or install things like P.A system,TV,DVD and........Then,here comes my aunty which calls me whenever her house computer got problems...But it's beneficial too,sometimes i tend to gets some surprises...Oh,forgotten to mentioned that the laptop i m using major part is from her money and i think only 700 i pay(include extra parts).The laptop cost is 3.5k and she pay 2800 if i m not forgotten.

lately i m heavily interested in badminton...Last time i spend most of my time searching for badminton racquets and the functions.I learnt a lot of things u noe~EdgeSaber7 i bought is a great racquet at RM140 include string n bag...Not bad for me...

Lately i get into this again...I m interested in buying the 2nd one,but i wondering which racquets i should choose.There are few option,Edgesaber10(a bit head heavy but balanced racquet),or Armorpower 900P/T series(head heavy racquet),or Nanopower 9900series which got good reviews...Which should i choose??Haha,i duno...Might the 9900 ba~APACS is the clone for Yonex racquets with 1/4 of the original price.Of coz i m not that rich to buy the Yonex high end racquet and i ned to save quite long for one piece of it.So,why dont i get a almost simillar racquet with 1/4 of the price?

Head Heavy racquets is for more power in smashing...A head light racquet is for easy manuver and control...The Edgesaber7 i got there is balanced n light racquet,but i kinda satisfied with it becoz i improved on my defense...Last time i used my dad's Carlton AirBlade which is head super heavy n heavy racquet,i kinda hard to swing outside n slow on my reaction.Glad that i improved on it.

Ok,cut the badminton part...Going to continue with other topic later~

Well~i met with many people today...

Before i start with my "met with many people" lets start with some "opening". Firstly,i felt that i
became another person lately.Er...How should i explain this...I think i m the old me again!I can
mix with jokes and be homour.I m more tolerance and patient compared to last time,in fact i
behaved well as a friend!

Ok,why would these happened??1stly,might be becoz i the past weeks that make me "mature"...I think a lot of things u know!But at last...I m tired of doing it.Well,i let it be wat it would be.I giving up on this things and would care less in the future which i think could make me stress free a little bit.

I m now feels like want to be friend with anybody.I dun wish to have any misunderstandings and hatred anymore to which ever friends....Guys,forgive me~And i hope "u" too.

Ou,not yet to the main theme,wait for a little longer coz i lazy to write another blog.Hmm...Ok,lets say it in this way.If we happened to met each other,then...er i might juz treat as i dun know u as last time??Or it may be...I walk away?But i think i wont do that since i dun wan to have any hatred,so it will be juz as normal as last time i guess.

I think i will talk less wif u,yea no matter how.Erm...avoid talking with u if i could,and might go off as soon as i hav the chance.Yea,thats me for the past n for now too.I cant change this personality of mine,n i dun think i ned to.Right?U can try talk to me if u wan,i think i will answr u gua...Haha,who knows!

Last nite,thank you for khai chien n big bro for acompany me out to search for foods.My stomach complain n complain that it is very hungry n needs immediate healing.Ou...that sucks!Thank you for both of ur precious time n money for the drinks.I m happy to contribute a little in there.

This morning,i promised my k-bro n sis them to go to skul.Well,it's seems like i m going to break the promise again but who knoes?I did show up!!Well,i actually quite late as i late for 10mins...My dad finished all the petrol in the tank.hell,did i scared that it will gone "off" in the middle of the road.Scary experience...I waste 10mins for the petrol filling and a big round to return to skul.

The skul as normal as it is so crowed wif students(of coz la,skulling day wat)...Erm...with noise too~Quite noisy n i did see a lots of "bad" boys there acting bosses.It did remind me of my old days as prefect...I m getting old-wakaka!!

Ok,then i met up wif sis n bros.1st to meet is chong kok.Hell,he is juz as fit as usual.Then yan zhi,khai kee,joo yen and lee peng all around me.We did have a great time chatting.But unfortunately,chong kok is going off to duty.Well,bro we sure going to chat next time when we got the chance.Well,as money fast as my sis could be...They ask me to treat,and this is of coz which i promised that i will treat but i m late.Ok then,RM10 gone to u guys.Divide it well,dont come kacau me if not enuf!!

Ok,another unfortunate is...I heard chia liang gone home.Ok,hell m i wondering wat happen??He is sick?Anything wrong wif his family??Well,hope if he is alright.Ok,next on will be going to take my spm cert.

Guess wat,the real show is now on.I met up with many teachers including Mr.Chan!!Pn.Chee,Pn.Tay,Botak L**(sorry bout that,forgotten ur name),Cikgu Mansur,Cikgu Zul,the pk duno who(new one),erm...lastly the most exited one Pn.Kanaga....WOW!!

luckily she didnt ask much,juz asked that what purpose that i come.Haha,nothing serious....Hell did i miss the skul...I wish i can get back to form3,the year which full of joy!Well,impossible to make that happen.Ok,stop here.C u guys around...

For those who wan to know why i say i end it earlier...

Ok,let me explain it then...

For example,me and a very very good friend(u treat it as u i u think ur my good friend).It's kinda simillar but storyline not the same of coz...

I know you for ages then and normally when we communicates it's juz phone call or smsing.Ok,this is how it goes.

One day,you got something more advance for example(internet) erm.... call it F.Book ba.But,the thing is...U know i got it too and u didnt add me.Erm...ok it's fine.

From the day You told me that u got internet ady i always thought of helping u to set up a account or help u install.Anyway,when i asked u that if u got FB ady or not,u juz simply didnt answer me then.

Well,i asked you not once or twice,i asked you for at least 5 times ady but u simply didnt reply me.Ok,fine i treat it as u dont have and i would like to do one for u.But later on,i found that u actually have one and u progressing well in it.Guys,what do u think i would felt??

Straight away i m furious,i deleted you without giving future notice.I mean phone book...And starting on that day,i m done with you....So~disapointed of coz!

Well,if u guys wondering...Wat If you are busy when i asked u,actually no.Becoz,when i sms you i ask you other things 1st,and u did reply in quite a fast reaction.Well,when i comes to the topic we mentioned, it suddenly stopped.And i tried to change other topic u reply me back.Oh well,if this is coincidence it wont happened for 5 times in a row.Dont u guys think so??

Ok,if u dont wan to add me it's actually fine.I didnt mentioned that i wanted u to add me or forced u to do so(but add ur best friend is not really a hard thing to do) but then the problem is...I juz wanted to help u!

Ok,story done here.The rest u can c it in my blog.

What i am so angry is i considered it as a "lie' and i certainly hated the most when people Xpecially any of my important person lied to me.Feels like i gonna knock him/her off!


(Not related to this story anymore)
Ok,u win...I surrender,i delete u off.I didnt wan to meet u even i got the chance,i gonna avoid to see u in any occasions.Yea,i think it's me who suffer more.

Thank you for making me so furious in that time that i made a quick decision to drop u off straight away.I duno if i made the right choice or not,it wont be any turning back.I said i owed u something earlier but then i duno if i can still give it to u then.It's depends on how things go.

Those who did not understand find me in msn ba.Those who read my blog shuld be close friends to me,it's ok to tell u guys.Yea,beside FB there is an important MSN too in internet!!Use it well~

Phase one i think...

Ok,i decided not to meet u.Hard for me to do but i think i got other alternatives.I can go out with bro them instead of u.Sorry big bro(czh) need to trouble you for some weeks then,and ur exam will be near too...I wont giv u much trouble dun worry,find u once a while and might not return to A/S sometimes...This will eventually make me stop thinking about you...Yea,if i keep it on i will be free sooner than expected.

I became a bit weird fellow these days...I can easily cope with anyone talking anything including nonsense...Well,i think i up my lv then.I didnt use much thinking when i talk nowadays,i guess that make me a more simple person.

Sometimes,it would be juz nice to pretend stupid.Pretend that i didnt heard about ur news,pretend to ignore your things,ur friends and so on.I literally close all the door that relate to u in my brain but something cant juz be forgotten.

It's nice if we are like computer,when u like this one u save it in ur HDD and if u wan to forget this one juz delete it forever...But for human,it takes really really long time to do that.I dun even think that it's possible to fully forget a person.

I write so many post lately in FB and write so many blogs here...Actually it's for myself to express feelings and it kinda serve as a loyal friend to listen to me.(Certainly better than you do)

Bro(HCK) yea,last time i said that it depends on how we think the things are.Actually,it's right but doesnt mean that everyone could view it as the same thing.

I m OK with things progressing now(not happy nor sad),lets proceed to second phase when the time i suitable.I will make it suit for me sooner as i dun wan it to drag too long.So,sorry for you and sorry for me too i would say.We got to end this once and for all,it's the best choice for u n me.

Things ended earlier than i expected...

Well,thats a good sign for me as i can end it earlier than expected.Thank you for doing "that" that make me furious for a while.U made my mind up to end this earlier. Hopefully i can really hit the target this time.

Because of you:

i been so kind to my friends....

i m a better friends

i get more friends

i learned to become stronger

i know what is the taste of love

i know how bad the taste of thinking of you

and because of you

i study in where i m now

i get to know so many lovely friends here

i had cried in the dark corner

i add some bitter taste in my life.......

i know how to concern about somebody

You probably didnt realise that ur so "big' in my life.Oh well, now getting rid of you i really hoped that i done the right choice...I know my heart is soft and i have forgiven u so many times before.This time is different...I always pray to god that we can be a better friends or pair.Now....I think next year i wont pray the same thing anymore.I prayed i been a normal person with normal life.Guess that i need to be alone again to achieve that.Well,single and not available is my choice being.I hope that next time we meet we wont be talking anymore...Erm...i mean "chatting" as i dunwan to fall into ur trap again.Forgive me...I cant take it any longer.This is not wat i had hoped,and i dun have choice anyway.U will find a better one,wish u be happy always....I really wished that you seen my blog and know that i m writting to "you".But that would be a coincidence as i didnt let many of my friends know my blog.Thats all for the time being,i need to step a gear up in my studies...Thank you for make me what i am today~

Well,i made up my mind at last...Wish to do it and dun think back.(can i really put it down?)

In the middle of exam now, and so many things for me to think of.

Books, friends, and "someone"

Well,i finally made up my mind....After i return wat i think i owe him, i wont look back at all.

So many years we have know each other.This would be a hard one for me n i think it wont be harsh on you.You simply dun care bout it anyway.

I juz cant stand it ady....I cannot stand of waiting for ur message,heard ur news from friends and
keep thinking of u all day n nite.It's juz too tiring.

Well,this might not be the last thing i will giv u,but it will be the last time i will put all my memory and all the feelings inside it.

I guess when i giv u next year, it wont be the same at all.I told u that i will give it to u as i actually planned for it so long ady to make this decision.

Despite our differences, it is really fun n happy to be with u. Yea,what i can say is i dun hav the courage and dun have the brain energy to continue this.

As in fact,from the bottom of my heart...I think u felt the same for me...But u r juz too....."close" i think.

Thank you i must say for all the sweet time u gave me and for the bad memories....I wont blame it on u,Juz that i felt i m too stupid to realise wat i think about u.

Haha,dun worry...i wont be so stupid ady to bother u.It's juz no ending for me as it is called the "forbidden love".

What can i say?Hmm......U probably wont see wat i write here or u might juz duno who i mean when u see wat i write.

I will post another one after august then.After i finish with my promise...what i owe u will be done,den i can let u off.

Till the time being....I will still be suffering,and after that day....I m going to be single and available again!!Erm...I think no,better not available.Hard to get rid of this thing...T_T

I m so tired...What if i never known of u before?What if we are not that close??What if i m juz a normal friend to u?Or wat if ur juz a normal friend for me??Shit n damn it.

Clocks tick so fast...Cant get back now,or i muz say that i really hope i can get back to the point when we 1st knew of each other.Mayb the time we the best in relationship??Haha,that will be impossible,it's all in our memory now.

After i made my things clear...I hope that u can find one best suited u,i did not manage to get u.I m Juz too tired. It's easy to know someone but the hardest to forget somebody. Cherish all the things u gave to me n for the time being i would say thank you for everything.....

New year~

Black Dog

Before>After

This is my dog...After swimming in the drain i mean~

Hang Out with Sis~Fun and Happy VS Angry and Moody!

After some times that we havent meet for ages...Then we finally plan and meet up!

They planned to hangout and eat in alor star mall as there got the night market and their idol there as well "Monday"

Well,i juz followed lurh~I m juz the driver and treat them eat nia ma...After reach there,walao!!!

So many cars,no parking wor~Then we planned to eat in georgetown...But,expensive and nothing to eat geh,so we switch other place lurh~

Now we switch to KFC...made the order and by the way....made the error~Not me made de,that cashier made de~She make me order one more chicken rice combo!!!Total all is RM52...And one thing in my head is...Walao,so suey de today??Kena RM52 to treat my sis~~

Then after eating,they say wan go walk the night market wor~Me certainly worried dat will exceed the given time as i m going to exam this week thursday...My mum going to scold me if i m late back home...

The night market so crowded and soo~~~~long de.Walk till me so tired.Pek chek lorh to wait the 4 ladies walk...By looking the time in my watch,i m sure that i m going to be late...

Before going back,we captured some pics...Will share later~

Then,here comes the most pek chek de part!!The traffic...JAMMED till~~~One hour also cannot move,i waiting to be scolded by mum then~

Wat make the things worst,my grandma legs crammed!!Oh shit~Mum call me to send her back but i m in the middle of the traffic jam...Lagi had to send sis back home also~

Haiz,the result is sure kena scold till~~~~T_T

I also dunwan geh marh~So,next time go place also ned to think futher liao,include the traffic jam inside also...If not kena lagi~

new year new day 1-1-2010(hangout) A/S

Today 1st day of 2010.Plans to hangout wif friends~

Many couldnt make it,including kc~Luckily got my bro czh and best friend cyp!

By first,we plan to watch move,but couldnt make it in time in the end.

Then firstly,we go to B.pinang find cpy,but he gone to genting...Wat a coincidence!

By then,we went to jitra mall...Walk here n thre n finally bought a new mouse~I mean "mouse"

After that,go eat in the KFC~Call a Twister combo there,Ping treat me n I treat my bro...

Many funny things there like we hit each other while playing on the seat,argueing who go to buy the foods,split the pepsi on MY SHIRT and so on~

After that,we went to Darulaman pond~At there we are still argueing(wif happiness) that wat activities that r going to do.

At 1st,i suggest we play kite as there many kite selling,then i suggest cycling.By then cyp suggest fishing n czh wat also suit him.Ok,then we argue again~

Fishing,not enuf time,no basket n so on~Cycling,half an hour only and expensive...Finally then,i forced to make a decision as time is running away.We all go cycling~In water xD

LoL,that pig,makes us so tired in physical n mental,Me lucky a bit as juz mental...I m the one who told instructuions and bro n dat pig the one who cycle~LoL,shout here n there,verry fun and funny!

Lastly,we go back to B.pinang as to send dat pig back.We go to the temple to meet up wif his dad.I take some pics too~

Very tiring day of coz,make me stress out~And surely will cost performance to be bad on the badminton 2moro.It was a funny and happy day by the way.